“Ugh”! I threw the phone into the passenger seat next to me and eased up on the gas. I was driving through unfamiliar territory in central Texas and had taken a series of wrong turns in my attempt to get back to where my husband sat in a job interview.
I pulled the car over and waited for the navigation system to catch up with my location. On the screen, the words “rerouting” flashed. I looked out at the vast landscape and took a deep breath. The scenery outside my window was nothing like the Pacific Northwest I was used to. Finding peace at this moment was not easy.
The endless open grassland dotted with deciduous trees and the sky open like a sea of blue and white calmed my anxious heart. My restlessness was not so much from the fact that I was sitting in the middle of a foreign countryside watching cows lazily much on green grass.
Rather it was a deep-down uncertainty about what the future looked like for our family. God was calling us to something only He knew details of, and we were obediently walking through open doors as we prayerfully sought His will.
The whole situation made me feel like I was a dot on the map of life, unsure of where to turn next. I was in a place of waiting and it seemed we had not necessarily taken a wrong turn, but that our course was changing. Were we being rerouted?
When Finding Peace is Hard
As I saw that flashing word on the screen in front of me, my heart went back to the many ways it seemed God had “rerouted” our direction over the years. These changes, whether scary, exciting, or a little bit of both are His fingerprints on the story of our lives.
In these moments, often full of bittersweetness, we can rest assured that God has His hand over us, and we are sheltered under His wings. I often find myself proclaiming with the Psalmist “…for you have been my help, and in the shadow of your wings I can sing for joy. My soul clings to you; your right hand upholds me”. (Psalm 63: 7-8, ESV)
It is here we find comfort, safety, and direction when peace is hard to come by.
During our times of rerouting, we can be faced with the challenges of changes in jobs, relationships, finances, or our health. We can find ourselves struggling with parenting, future plans, or past mistakes. We feel like we have lost our way and we eagerly wait and watch the horizon for the next turn. We pray and hope that this turn will be better than where we currently sit.
Leaning into the promises of God during this rerouting brings a sense of peace in the waiting. We can remember His love and faithfulness. We can remember how He shows us glimpses of Himself in the touch of a friend, a beautiful sunrise, or the provision of a long-awaited desire. He came that we “…may have life and have it abundantly”. (John 10:10, ESV).
As we lean into the promises of God I have learned that I can breathe deep when life is rerouting and finding peace is hard. When we take the time to reflect, listen, and observe we can hear the whispers of God and follow His direction.
I could have easily gone into a crying fit that day in the Texas countryside. I was certainly frustrated and a bit scared at where I sat. Change and uncertainty are hard. Finding peace goes against everything the enemy wants us to believe.
But taking the time to listen and see out my window, I realized that God was wrapping me in His arms and reminding me that I am loved and that He sees. Likewise, He sees each of us and is making something beautiful in the process of our waiting.
It did not take long for me to start on the right road again. What seemed like a long wait, was just a few minutes and I was back watching the horizon and taking the next turn. This in God’s call for us. He wants us to take the next steps and watch straight ahead. He calls us to remember what we have experienced in the past and use it to propel us forward with gratitude.
I finally found my way back to my husband. My life looks different than I thought it did that spring day in the middle of the Texas fields. I learned that God takes each of us on our own “rerouting” for a lot of different reasons and seasons. The changes of life always make up the story He is writing and when He is in it, our path is never off course.
How about you? Is finding peace hard right now? Are you in a place of frustration, doubt, or uncertainty? I want to encourage you to take this to the Lord. He is Prince of Peace and with him we can find certainty when life is changing all around us.
“…Peace be with you.” John 20:26
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